Bad Mom
I saw this meme the other day that said that moms who struggled with infertility shouldn't feel bad for yelling at their kids because even miracle babies can be assholes. I'm sure it was meant to get a chuckle but for me it really struck home. I mean, my daughter hasn't hit the age where I've yelled at her but I've definitely raised my voice and gotten really frustrated. But that's the thing - when you've wanted a kid your entire life and finally, by a miraculous chance, have one then everything you do feels wrong. Feed them chicken nuggets? They could have had lean, non-breaded chicken. Bad mom. Raise your voice? You should be more patient. Bad mom. Didn't hold them when they were fussy because you wanted to clean their messy playroom? How dare you let a moment with them pass! BAD MOM! Even though no one says bad mom, the criticism is innate. You are your biggest critic. And I know that this is true of all mothers but when your child is a miracle baby